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Blogs > charleygirl43 > dreams... hopes... fantasies

CLUNK!!!  

charleygirl43 62F  
144 posts
4/10/2011 8:58 pm
CLUNK!!!

CLUNK!!!

That was the sound that my tv made when it died...

it's also the sound that i've heard my
heart make numerous times.... each time
i've been hurt, the sound has been a little
bit louder.... and the pain has been a little
bit stronger....and the pain never really
goes away....

i've gotten to where i can hide the pain
(most of the time).... i joke around in
order to keep it at bay.... i'll smile.... i'll
laugh.... i tell stupid jokes, and
sometimes, become a real smartass....

anything i can, so no one will know....
i'll get quiet.... almost withdrawn.... and i
know that it hurts my friends to see me
this way, but i don't know of any other
way to cope.... my nerves are raw... the
pain is directly under the surface.... and i
can't let it be seen....

someday, i hope i will find someone who
will love me, unconditionally... who will
make the pain disappear... and will make
me smile and laugh....

and until then.... all i can do is pick up the
pieces.... glue them back together.... and
wait for the next big CLUNK....

reallyready46 64M
1383 posts
5/1/2011 11:54 pm

 Hard to believe that others at times can not see what is going on. But alot of us can hide it behind jokes, or other things. It amazes me how thoughtless others can be using other people as door mats just to get what they want. I know exactly what you are saying.


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