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A Silver Lining???  

mimi4evah 53F
78 posts
5/19/2016 12:56 am
A Silver Lining???

This may be a rambling post and I apologize in advance.

Several months....no many years ago I decided that I wanted to work for a very large sporting goods company that was coming into where I lived. I KNEW I would be a great addition to their company. Their catalog was my leisurely reading and I would be great at helping busy wives find the perfect gift for their outdoor loving husband. Reality.... I got a divorce before the store was built.

I wasn't sure how I was going to move forward.... and I knew I couldn't take a job in a retail market with my new EX-husband still working the 24 on and 48 off schedule of a firefighter. I needed to be MOM....

I began beauty school. I did well in school and have done well since.... however I have encountered some huge obstacles. Salons closing with 2 hours notice, 30 days notice....and other things that just were the way they were.

With all of the moves.... it makes a hairstylist suffer. It just does. I decided that I wanted that job at the sporting goods store. Beyond all my dreams..... they hired ME!!! What? It was only a minimum wage job on my days off from the salon. Somehow I felt full in my heart because something I wanted for so long came true.

Today I am sad because this place I'd dreamed of working has let me know I have to be available both weekend days in order to work there. Even though this single lady will work a Friday night and a Sunday morning. It is not enough. It looks like I will lose my position there. I am not poised to move up in the company or do anything more than what I do.... but still, THEY HIRED ME!!! I'd not had an employer in 15 years! It meant the world to me.

I know that all things happen for a reason, be happy, new things are coming.... all of that. Trust me.... at this point.... I get it.

With all that has happened, I am feeling like it is time to listen to my good friend Walter and realize that I am working too hard to open closed doors. The universe is trying to tell me something. I am struggling too deeply for far too little return. I have never sought to be anything more than stable. I'd like to look at that great coat on sale at work for my and buy it for his birthday that passed 6 days ago. I'd like to not worry that I am going to fail and scare my . My wants aren't even about ME....of course not. They are about those around me.

I am disappointed. I put my all into everything I do. I am searching for the silver lining.... it must be that good things are coming. I am searching my heart for truth.

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