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no effort ~ all off a sudden ~ i know im sad I know im upset I got a new dress today & im not excited ~ x ~ love it the comforts of being SAD "I personally think Kurt Cobain is the new deity of inner upsets & pain ~ which is fine ~ all emotions are important ~ ~ps~ not here to impress anyone ~ im here documenting my solitary ~ life ~ |
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totally given up ~ like ~ attempting is failure ~ it is so embaressing ~ x shameful even ~ when i realise im a silly dumb wonan who's head was up the arse nof a man who ~ just admired so much and adored ~ burn my fingers for and heal quickly ~ its just sad ~ the way ~ i can give 1000% up in the wrong direction ~ when its just sad ~ i dont think im supposed to be happy ~ as like ~ people are embarrassed if im happy with them its like knowing of me is embaressing i noticed some people come round or know im a vibe for the party sometimes i do go along ~ but then deep down ~ they know & i know im 1000% alone ~ real sad ~ at times ~ Quite weird ~ if he says no dinners no night out no nothing im trying to think ~ if i was in a better it doesnt matter ~ x its just hard to show my face ~ its amazing how the people who make you weird in the first place know how much they make you suffer ~ whether they be family of friend or the bloke who just wants to fuck you when your ruined its amazing how they think they are the ones to have a happy chat with ~ like fuck off thanks to you all {not you guys} the tormentors of deception ~ its amazing how they think they can giggle with you ~ it just hurts like they boost about how everyone around them is having a good time getting married and shit yet they are respinsible for you being weird & unable to have such fun due to your lack of everything skills & illnesses now that one is a tormented soul instead of an lovely {NORMAL} person ~ well ~ at 41 im weird 1000 ~ what can I say ~ there is no measurement of the unfortunate fate ~ if you feel it ~ the severity is all the same there is no mild upset or trauma ~ just traumatised & thats it ~ Dr's with barge poles Police with the taze & men with pricks whilst im left in a daze ~ x
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even the dark ones the frightened and mean ones ,even the ones with only evil to say ,just turn your back and walk away .others who are poisoned by the hatred and envy ,the bitter and loathe some with the empty inside ,just turn around and say goodbye . No one needs others approval to be healthy , content and themselves . best of wishes .
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~xxx thank you ~ xxx i should just walk away ~ im just really sad ~ that im not good enough &never will be ~ its really horrible life when you have my face i just realised im the not picked for anything woman ~ its horrible ~ its acomforting horrible ~ im aware im noot the lovely lady it doens tmatter what i do or how i feel ~ there is noone allowed to be kind to me in Britain ~ im the beaten lady ~ i dont even try any more ~ im officially vulnerably so ~ they win ~
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2/15/2019 8:46 pm |
i agree, more please
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