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A lot of people as they go through life achieve greatness in massing wealth,,fame or doing their fellow mankind a service.But my achievement has to to with myself.I have come out as a woman,totally and entirely.I have played this part for 12 years totally 24-7 and is now ready to let people in my life.
I have always felt from an early age that something wasn't right and felt I was a girl trapped in a boys body.I like boy stuff,but not to be one of them,I could relate to the feminine things much better.
So after high school I let my hair grow and bought all new clothes,,perfumes,,lingerie,,changed my name and acted,,lived,,talked,,and preformed as a woman.
I always wear sexy lingerie,,heels,,garters,,skirts and dresses,,sometimes pantyhose (these all hides my male bulge),,if wearing something tight fitting,,I tape myself down.
My new friends,co-workers,and people I meet everyday never found out,,at least nothing was said..Guys ask me out almost daily so I figure I am quite passable.I have dated both men and women socially but not as lovers.I did have one female lover for long term but her bio clock began to tick and thought her husband would not understand..
I was blessed as having an hour glass shape,,light complexion,,small hands and feet very little body hair,,no face hair and a woman's voice..Other than the fact I have full working male junk,I am all woman..I did have breast surgery (although I did have small B-cup breast in high school),,to get myself more proportioned, but that is all.I am not going any farther with this,I am happy here,but always wished I had a vagina.
I am a size 8 in dresses,,size 6 in shoes,,37-24-35,,brown hair,,,blue contacts,,light D cup,,but mostly wear a C cup,,had breast surgery,,master degrees,,modeled professionally,,now have a government job and am independent.
As you can see from my picture at the upper left hand corner,,,a lot of work and a desire,,this is what can be attained.
I especially love women,I like everything about them.I study their actions,,moves and mannerisms.I want to be just like them,,but with out the attitude that some display.
I love guys also,especially feminine ones.T-girls have always attracted me,I felt like,, I am not the only weird one in this.I like to find sisters and be close.
My greatest hope would be to fall in love and live happily ever after.To whom,, makes no difference,my heart is accepting to all.I can work with whatever body parts you have and hope you can do the same with me.
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Posted:Apr 25, 2010 7:17 am
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I got up early this morning and working from my laptop.I am at Missy's house and up to make them breakfast in bed.I have a few minutes waiting on the scratch made biscuits to bake.So I have a few minutes here.
My mind is running a hundred miles an hour and just had to tell someone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I was not disappointed in any way!But surpassed all expectations.
My hands are shaking so badly that can't hardly type.I have never had such an experience like this before.I had a 7 year live in girlfriend,,and not to take anything for that relationship,,this one is over exceeding anything so far!
I don't have a lot of time here so will make this short.
It all started out like any other Friday night with them,,dinner,,conversation,,a few after dinner drinks,,music and some dancing.One thing lead to another and while dancing with Kevin we passed by Missy sitting on the sofia.She slowly started to run her hand up my hosiery to under my skirt.My skirt was sticking out in front,,rubbing against Kevin's pants that was sticking out also!Well by that time I was so,,so,,so,,excited that it was all over.I needed them,,I needed it badly,,I want to make love right there,,right then,,it was time and time was running out..I have never felt so turned on,,so hot,,so lustful,,so horny,,so out of control!!!I am usually reserved but they smelled so good,,their touch so soft and I could see it in their eyes too,,that they wanted it,,needed it as badly as I did.
Missy unbuttoned my skirt and pulled the zipper down,,my skirt fell to the floor and those panties could not hold me any longer!!Out it flew,,I am usually kinda ashamed of that,,but right then,,I wanted to use that thing more than any thing on my mind!I could feel my heartbeat in it,,it was so erect that I could not feel it!!I felt like a guy,,I felt like a woman and felt things I never felt before!What was happening to me?,,why am I out of control?,,why do I have these feelings,,it kind of scared me,,but did not want it to stop!I found it hard to breathe,,hard to speak,,and I was burning up,,I could feel sweat running down my butt crack!
I can not get into details for respect for my love towards Kevin and Missy,,,yes,,it is love!Only thing I can say is,,,it lasted for just over 8 hours and finally fell to sleep in each others arms.I guess I was the meat in the sandwich,,being in the middle.
We spent the next day trying to recoup and talk about our relationship.Only thing I can say is,,,I am so sore from muscles I didn't know I had.My face hurts from smiling so much and using it,,lol.
The circle is complete now!.I am so glad we waited and fell in love first.It was all worth the extra effort in substaining from the sex right off.The anticipations of the affair was out of this world.I got such a high from that I could do and last so much longer than any other time.We all had so many orgasms that no one could even count them.I had done my personal best with them and am glad they are the ones that got that trophy.
They are such great people!So warm and welcoming that I am so glad they came into my life.We are seriously talking about more of a committed relationship.They have begun to stay over with me now and have brought some personal things to keep with me in their bedroom.I go into their bathroom at my house when they are not with me and use her lipstick,,just the thought of putting it against my lips when it had been on hers,,make me feel closer to her when they are away.The smell of his after shave lingers in the bathroom,,I always take the top off and give a good sniff,,his imagine instantly pops into my head.
My heart is so full of love right now!Everybody is my friend and life is so great!What is life if not having friends that are loved ones to share it with?.We have also been talking about bringing other people into our love circle.A poly relationship is not out of the question.Several people comes to mind and have approached them about it.But like all love affairs,,it takes time..
I wrote way too long and can smell biscuits.Have to go!
Thanks to all of you that had posted on my last post..It was so sweet that you cared..Love......Candi
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Posted:Apr 23, 2010 11:44 am
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I have been having increasingly stronger feelings towards my friends.This weekend,,, I am going to let passion,,love and lust rule my mind,,,if the will have me!
I now feel that all 3 of us are on the same page and developed a relationship that not many have ever experienced.
I bought a brand new outfit to wear tonight and am soooooo nervous.I have given them some hints this past week that something is in the air,,their response was very welcoming.So tonight is going to be the first night of the rest of my life,,,,,,I hope,,,,fingers crossed!
I will try to post my results on Sunday night if they wouldn't mind me saying something about our "first" time.
This is my new outfit,,,sorry I haven't had time to tan.
Wish me luck!........love....Candi
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Our vacation.
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Posted:Apr 4, 2010 4:22 pm
Last Updated:Feb 2, 2011 1:28 pm
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I haven't been on for a while.I am starting to think,maybe,about leaving the site.I signed up on here to make friends whom was in the same position as myself,,,,,meet some people that wanted the same things.I am sure I have done that!Other than staying in touch with friends,I don't see a reason to stay much longer.As I am not a player/swinger always looking for new meat,there really isn't a reason to stay,other than the groups I've joined.
I just returned from a group bike ride over the Easter Holiday.K had called me on Wed. afternoon,said for me to pack a bag/sleeping bag for 4 days and gas the Harley,we were leaving in the morning!But where?We ended up going to the Blue Ridge park way!
The weather was great!Cool in the mornings and evenings but warm in the daytime.The views was as beautiful as ever and we took our time and tried to see everything.I can't believe how spring has come to that part of the country before we experienced it.
We rode 7 bikes with 12 people.5 couples,,a solo woman rider with her bike and myself on mine.She can ride a bike as well or maybe better than any guy I've seen!We took our sleeping bags and shared a couple of rooms,,,too cold to camp yet.It was like a sorority house in college.Everybody sitting/laying around eating/drinking/talking about the days events or life experiences.Everyone knew about me,,they were so great!Never a uncomfortable minute,very helpful and never pulled away from me,,,actually they were always around me!
On the way back we stopped and got gas around noon on Sunday,we all was a little tired and wanted to have lunch and stretch.K & M wanting to keep going so we agreed,we had another 2 hours to go.When we rode up to their house,there was a hog smoker in the yard and Easter decorations up.They had a dinner catered for us all.Baby back ribs,,chicken,,smoked salmon with fries,,baked potatoes,,rolls,deserts all the drinks and many more fixings.Wow,,do they know how to treat their friends!!The best part,,we didn't have to help clean up,and had doggy bags to take home for later.
On the trip,they took care of all the food,motels,gas,,, we only used our money on a candy bar or two.We tried to pay them,, but got mad if we kept trying to force them.They said we were their guests and they wanted to share their good fortune with their friends..Quite a couple!!!
I think I have found what I have been looking for.
We have discussed about retiring full time,,getting RVs and just vacation 100% of the time!All of us are able to quit what we are doing and before the economy totally collapses,,we should get out.If Amy's were a little older,,,I would hand over the business to her and she could send me a check once a month.She knows the business as well as myself!
This is just in the talking stage,,nothing happening soon,,but just a thought!
I better wash clothes and get some rest..I love you guys!!...........Candi
The ride was so peaceful.Mother nature has over did herself.
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Although it was rainy outside,,it was sunny inside.
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Posted:Mar 28, 2010 2:15 pm
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I am beginning to feel a comforting peace in my heart that has been absent for many years,(since Amy had left full time).I day dream all the time,not being able to focus on work.I can hear their voices,,their touch and over all feeling that,, they are with me.
Before meeting them for a date,,I can't sleep the night before,,can't sit still,,I am checking my hair,,checking my skirt/blouse,,check my stockings making sure there are no runs,,looking for lipstick on my teeth,,looking in the mirror,,countless times..I always stop at their mailbox to check myself once more..OMG,,is this dating ever hard,,but I love every second of it!!!
An Ora is over or around them.As I walk up to them,,seeing their out-stretched arms and big welcoming smiles,,I can feel the hair on the back of my neck rising up,,my heart is pounding,,I can feel perspiration beginning to form,,I am un-steady on in heels,,my mouth is dry and words don't seem to form!!!What is wrong with me?am I having a stroke?,,no,,I think it my be falling in love................
With the hugs,, kisses,, from them,,her hair tickling my face,,the warmth and softness of her face on mine,,his broad strong shoulders.I feel a calming effect,, as if,,I am finally home!Walking into their home,,all holding hands,,I can't keep my eyes or hands off them..I can't even remember driving to their house!!!Did I turn the computer off,,did I feed the cats,,did I turn the lights off?..We always drive back later to check on things,,lol..I just fall apart around them!!!!!!!We all laugh and hug each other..They asked if I know how to keep this from happening,,I said no..They said it could all be solved if I moved in with them full time or even part time..I almost blurted out,,,HELL YES,,but I want these feelings to get stronger..I am already staying 2 nights a week now,,they said to bring more things over to keep with them..M and I went shopping,,,,2 hot girls on the town,,,lol,,,to get everything I need so I don't have to bring a bag.
I used to look forward to Mondays,getting back to work and my work schedule for the week.Now it's looking forward to the weekends to be together once more.I find myself going to their house on Friday afternoons and staying till Sunday afternoon.Every time I mention about leaving,,they talk me into staying a little longer,,they never have to ask twice,,lol.
We all made dinner together on Fri nites sit and talk about the weeks events,,making plans for the oncoming weekend.Saturday we went to an engine show/swap meet,,a flea market was there also.As walking down the aisles,,I spied a stack of civil war books..I went over to them and the tag said,,8 dollars each,,the woman behind the table said they are now 5 bucks..So,,always looking for a bargain,,started looking through them,,I picked out 2 arm fulls and went to pay,,she said the rest of the stack was 10 dollars,,so took them all.When we took them to M's home, we took them in to look through..In each was an inscription saying for instance;,,"Happy Fathers Day Dad,,,from Craig and Joice!..I found out later from K,,,that the flea market woman bought those from a widow of a WWII vet that had pasted away a year earlier and was finally getting rid of her husbands things,,the Joice was his !!!!..I was in tears immediately when K told me the story...Why,,Why,,How could they part with such sentimental objects?
I am a pack rat!..Anything historical,,family history,,or sentimental objects stays with me!..They are very organized and labeled..I believe in ones history,,whether good or bad.
Looking into M & K's home it is much the same way..Their house is warm and cozzie,,well kept and they have family and friends pictures everywhere.Surrounded with little possessions that their made for them over the years..Family heirlooms hangs on the walls..To know where you want to go in life,,you have to know where you came from!
After the flea market we went to the Harley shop,,awww the smell of the new bikes as we walked into the door!.M and I went to the clothes section and was holding clothes up to each other..Feeling her fingers touching me as she held them on me,,smile on her face and twinkle in her eyes,,I could just melt,,she always hesitated longer than normal while holding them on me,,,to catch a feel I guess,,sweet girl!.We bought nothing,,just looking.Went over to the bikes,,but didn't see any Heritage Softails there.I always loved the look of those,,the leather bags and fringe.M insisted that I get the fringe for the floor boards and clutch/brake levers,,not to mention a leather jacket with fringe also,,,lol.So back to the clothes,,had to try them all on,,,lol.What a day!!!!
Being with them,,I always feel like a woman,,treated as such and accepted..She makes me feel like a girly girl,,doing our hairs,,dressing,,clothing,,fashions and womanhood in general..I was finally nude in front of her this weekend for the first time,,it was like 2 girls hanging out trying on clothes,,,but I did catch her sneaking a peek,,,wink,,lol..K,,always a gentleman,,very attentive and always helpful..Every once in a while he has a way of bringing the guy out in me!..I don't mind it,,but our conversation would drift to guy things,,then un-aware what I am doing ,, my fem side slips a little and we are buddies..We both laugh,,hug each other and give kisses..He is a doll!!!
It's funny how even the little meaningless tasks are so exciting when with someone who you are starting to have feelings toward..Grocery shopping,,making a meal,,washing the dishes,,cleaning the house,,all the while talking about our lives,,sharing ideas.When the topics get a little intense,,we sit down,,cry a little,,laugh a lot and hold one another often!.I know,,,I am sounding like a girl!,,lol.
When we leave one another,,we all have tears and long hugs,,standing in the driveway till we freeze or are drowned.
I love how both are so accepting and let things develop for themselves.
I don't understand it,, I was so happy and up beat all weekend and within a half hour I am so depressed,,lonely and it is so quiet in the house,,I can still hear their words echoing in my mind,,feel the kisses of their lips!
Don't worry,,,I always show them a copy of this before I post!
This is beginning to be the best times of my life,,,and I had a lot of good times all ready!!!..Have to do laundry and get ready for the up coming week.....Hugs...Candi
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Soul mate
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Posted:Mar 22, 2010 6:55 am
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What if we did find our soul mate but couldn't be with them?The reasons could be vast.Situations like,,
Too far away.
Do we try to comment,,is it possible to fall in love by phone/IM?How long would that relationship last that way?How far would we go to be with one another.Would we quit our jobs and move together completely away from others?Are the distant people more open,,knowing that a actual meet/commitment is impossible?They are just needing conversation to excite then selves or a feeling of belonging to a group?
Time willing to spend.
How much time is good for a healthy relationship?What if one of us felt that the other is working too much or at odd hours.Do we find other work to have love?Is the love of money greater than the love between us?I know that a couple should not spend every waking hour together,,we all need time apart.
Other family members.
People who has ,,are we going to be a secret?Are we going have to meet on every other weekend when you have the ?Are the going to except you having a girlfriend?Is your parents//family/friends going to accept this/me?
Commitments..
How far would you take this commitment?Just dating,,just sex,,just a once in a while itch?Are we going to live part time with each other or full time..Are you going to move to me or I, to you?Are we going to exchange rings?Are we going to be exclusive to one another?
How far would we go to be with our mate?
My answer to that is;,,,What ever it takes for me to be with you,,I am willing to give!
I don't sleep around.I must have the mental stimulation for intimate affairs to happen.I am not here for fun.I do like to make friends and mail each other.I don't like the pushing,let's meet all the time conversations.I am/will be the committed girl/wife that you want,,or maybe you don't want.
I need to belong to someone,,not in the controlling fashion but a loving one,,and be loved back.Whether it is with one,,two or more..A small circle of lovers would be acceptable.No sneaking around everybody up front.I always see the good in everybody before the bad out shadows the good.Let's face it,,,there are bad people,,and I am sure they are here.
As the days go on,,,I can feel my heart growing opening up more all the time.I read peoples letters and it stirs me,,emotionally.Hope we can grow together...........Candi
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Just might be around the corner.
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Posted:Mar 21, 2010 5:50 pm
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We search from far and wide,looking for that perfect person(s),spending money and sitting behind a computer screen for hours.
But what maybe,what we seek is just around the corner.Maybe we all have crossed paths in everyday life.We shop at the same stores or even know some common friends.What if the person(s) we all seek is just down the road a piece?Why do we look at such great distances when all we need to do is,,just stop and look!
This has happened to me and between some friends of mine.We practically bump into one another for years but had no idea of whom we were.
How many other missed opportunities have we missed?Did we miss a lover? a spouse? a best friend?Just because we never took the time to get to know a person,or some little dumb thing happened to loose the interest between them and you.Like bad mail,,lost mail or a sentence or phrase misunderstood.
In the past few weeks I have met some really special people.They were here all the time.They didn't move to the area or I moved here.We went to the same festivals,walked the same streets and heard the same local news.How many others have we missing?
From now on.I am taking my time and to really get to know others before I dismiss them.Always on the watch and ear to the ground.
BTW...The blue dress pictures was taken yesterday.The woman who took those helped me with my hair by putting some high lights in it.She/we worked a long time to get these results and are really glad we did,,,all 3 of us.It was a wonderful day of "girl" time..Thank you Missy!
Hugs...Candi
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I couldn't sleep.
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Posted:Mar 21, 2010 3:01 am
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I am currently staying with some friends for the weekend.I woke up at 3 and could not get back to sleep.The feeling that I will miss something,like a at Christmas.I am actually waiting for them to get up,not wanting to wake them,but hoping they will feel the same and come down.
While walking past their door,,I could hear them breathing,,what a great sound.I am not used to people in a house with me at night.I love the feeling of someone there,even though I am in their house,but makes me feel at home.
Got up and went downstairs while being quiet not to wake them.I sit here looking around the room,,not nibbing,,but just looking from a distance.I see their lives all over this room,there love for one another and how hard they worked to achieve what they have.I feel that love!I hear it in their voices and see it in their eyes.This could be my perfect world.
People ask;,,why/how could I be attracted to a couple?.Why not?.They are capable of love,I am capable of loving more than one person!I don't look at gender,I look at their love!Whether single guys,girls or couples.Couples are secure and it proves that they can commit to one another,,why not with me at the same time?
I can see myself with them for many years to come.A christmas tree in the great room,,the birthday parties,,the intimate gatherings and also the sad affairs that happen.All these things bonding us closer together.There are feelings stirring inside of me like I have not felt in a long time.It really feels good and hopefully can continue.
I am constantly making new friends,we meet for lunch mostly.I feel a little guilty about seeing other people.They say to go ahead and have fun.Not many people would say that.I could not have too many friends and will cherish the ones I've met.I can love more than one,just hope they understand that.
It is almost 6 am now,,maybe the smell of coffee will wake them,,lol.............Hugs..Candi
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Passing of a hero>
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Posted:Mar 18, 2010 4:09 pm
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I was just watching the news a few minutes ago and heard that Fess Parker had passed away..I went to tears immediately!
I grew up watching re-runs of Davy Crockett and Danial Boone..I know he played a fictional character,,,and it was a little corny by today's standards..But to me he was an American icon,,evil was defeated and good always prevailed...Not too much of that happens in today's world..
This weekend I am getting my dvds out of him and have a marathon viewing with a bottle of wine,,,get the tissues out.....Candi
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I just feel like writing today.
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Posted:Mar 18, 2010 8:16 am
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I got a really good nights sleep last night,,feel a little horny and felt like random thoughts,,maybe vent a little or inspire other topics.
It is am amazing occurrence on how the guys do not read my profile or blogs..They ask questions that is right in my profile..It is like taking a test with an open book,,and not using it..The mail on here,,,guys write a few words or a sentance..Guys!.There is nothing there to attract me to you!
I love to read a well constructed, long letter where the person opens up to me in a non crude fashion,,bringing up points of common interests between them and me,,it's not all about sex,,guys..
I am not going to be your bitch and be sub to any one..I am the kind of girl you take home to Mom!.If you want the tramps,,look else where,,not here!
Sex is not something I speak of very often,,I do feel it is between me and my lover,,of what sort of,,frequency,,and whom with.
Yes,,I do have sex..Yes,,I do have it almost everyday,,but not with some one all the time..I am still seeing a girlfriend and we do share experiences but we have limited time together..
I masturbate..Let's face it,,,we all do..The mornings and nights are best for me..Never to videos,magazines or computer..Mostly it is a thought of someone whom I've met or talked with..Reading their words,,listening to their voice or feeling the touch of them..I close my eyes and can feel them touching me,,I can still smell her perfume,,still hear her words..Running the scenario through my mind I can get an orgasm just by thinking of someone that I love,,,using no hands or toys..I have been able to use my mind to control my body from an early age..I started this while in grade school..I could reach orgasm in class by just thinking of events..I spent many Ohio history class that way..I am also capable of going for hours at a time not having one to satify my partner to her limit.
I don't get excited by wearing women's clothes,,it has been a way of life for a long time now..I do enjoy it as I like wearing nice things that makes me look feminine and desirable..I love seeing other women or gurls wearing nice things also,,,,I do excited about that!
Hope this is not too much information,,,but something to think about!...Hugs...Candi
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Had another great day!
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Posted:Mar 17, 2010 6:09 pm
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Spring is definitely in the air..I was getting so tired of white,,snow that is..The birds is checking out my bird boxes,,the frogs are singing in the farm pond,,little calves are in the field,,a hint of something green around the house,,and I met one of the most beautiful women in the county today for lunch.
Charming,,witty,,shapely,,and a fellow Harley rider..We spent a 3 hour lunch and made plans for more.
I dusted off my Harley today and took her a spin..I call it a "her"..She can be beautiful in the right light,,always thinking of my comfort,,she knows how to connect with me when I am down and knows how to make me feel even better when I am up..She is my girlfriend,,a love affair for life..She doesn't get mad with me looking at another bike,,or when I ride another one,,or when I turn her off and go in the house after a hard ride,,or taking her in those down pours in summer,,leaving her in the hot sun as I lay on the beach..She is quite a girl,,,my friend to the end..
I had a full day today,,,I think I got my taxes done,,met a beautiful girl,,took a bike ride,,talked to my couple,,and the world feels right..Going to sleep well tonight...Hugs..Candi
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My second date.
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Posted:Mar 14, 2010 8:17 am
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Hi all
The past 2 days has been the most exciting 2 days that I have had in a long time..I was invited to a BBQ with a couple that I have been mailing for almost a month now.This was our second date but we have met in between for coffee through the week.I am a avid writer and always race to my diary.This blog has been approved by them and won't give details.It is mainly my feelings and the general time line of events.It is intended to convey my thoughts and feelings to this wonderful couple,to show my appreciation and to let others know,there are real people.
This couple had invited me to a family BBQ that has held in their home.They had invited family,friends,to let me see their life in amongst their loved ones.I was extremely nervous but excited at the same time.At this point, they are willing to share their lives with me and for them to be completely open.
They introduced me as a co-worker and I was graciously accepted as another one of their friends.We all laughed and talked, ate some of the best BBQ that rivals the southern style lowland BBQ.Roasted marsh mellows in the fireplace,drank fine wine and some live music.They have friends that plays and it was a really good show they put on.It was just a perfect afternoon-evening.
The guests started to thin out,each one leaving with kisses and hugs to all,(something that I really liked).I was last to leave.I stayed behind to help clean up,put things away, have a few minutes alone with them, to say how much I was smitten by by them.I started out by saying how comfortable they made me feel and how much love they shown toward each other and their friends..(M the woman,K the man) M said that I could be included into that statement if I wanted.I was totally blown away and burst into tears.She hugged me and had me go over a sit for a while.We ended up talking till 4 in the morning.Telling all of my dreams,down falls and disappointments.We all was involved with the conversation.We laughed,we cried and at times,sat there in quiet just holding hands or hugging.
It was late and they said I had plenty of room and stay the night.I had packed a bag just in case.They showed me to a bedroom,asked if I was ok and kissed me goodnight.I fell to sleep flairly fast,I had been up almost 24 hours.
I heard people stirring at 7 am,this was odd for me to be in bed this late.I took a shower and came out to borrow a hair drier.M went to get one out of their bathroom.She came back and wanted to know if I wanted her to help me get ready.Yes,I love people touching my hair.She blew my hair dry while styling it at the same time.She helped me do my make-up,all at the same time we discussed what look best with our check bones,outfits,time of day,lighting and the latest trends.
We both came out holding hands and sat at the breakfast table.K had already fixed breakfast,asked what I liked to eat for breakfast and served us both,a perfect gentleman the whole time.The breakfast was delicious,the company was inspiring and didn't want it to come to an end.
Although it was a rainy day,there was finally sunshine in my heart again.There was no sex involved,we all want a relationship to blossom first.But I have so much of an attraction to the both of them.I love their out look on life,their kindness and I can see why their friends love them so much.I have so much in common with the both of of them,they are the whole package.They are not the normal couple where each has their own hobbies and interests.They share in everything.
I just want to tell you two.I can see a deep loving friendship with you,if you will have me.....I will call tonight...Thank you!!.....Love you two..Candi
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So many ask.
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Posted:Mar 12, 2010 10:45 am
Last Updated:Feb 2, 2011 1:34 pm
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So many people ask what I am like in real life..Just a normal woman,,I guess..But do have a little cross-over likes..
Music;,,,,
I listen in mostly classic rock,,60s-70s,,,anything with a good beat or sends a message..Bee Gees,,Madonna,,Chicago,,Fleet wood Mac,,Lady Ga Ga,,Katy Perry,,Pussy Cat Dolls,,this just a small amount..I love live music and concerts,,,went to see KC & The Sunshine Band a few years ago,,,wow,,what a show!
Foods:,,
Chinese,,BBQ,,home cooking,,a burger and fries sometimes,,all sea food,,ice cream,,junk food,,vegetables,,well,,let's put it this way,,,I don't like lima beans,,re-fried beans and raw fish!..I love to cook and cook everyday..I eat way too much but it doesn't stick to me,,,fortunately..
Passing the time of day;,,,
I read a lot,,ride my Harley,,shooting,,I love house work,,helping others,,gardening,,bubble baths,,writing letters,,camping,,fishing,,dining out,,travel,,just normal things..I like the feeling of accomplishment at the end of the day,,,like I made a difference in some way...
Things I think about;,,,
Life,,,,,what it means to me and others,,how precious life is and how much just one person can make in someone else's life..Why we do the things we do,,why others do those things to other people..How good it feels to love others and be loved..How the universe was formed..Is God real?,,is there other life forms?,,is there life after this one?,,do we really have a spirit?,,do spirits get put into the wrong body?,,is karma the thing that only matters?..I like laying on my back looking up at the stars and trying to find a reason for these things,,and before you know it,,,the sun is up!..I have opinions and beliefs on all of these,,but I am sure I do not have all the answers..
Love;,,,
What does it me mean to me?..What does it mean to someone else?..Are our love to each other compatible?..Why do I feel a need for it,,as if it is water to drink or air to breathe?..Can we go through life and not love at all?..Why do people doubt your love for them?..Do we say it so often that it has no merritt any longer?..Is it possible to love one another and have never met in person?,,Why do people build up barriers so we can't love them?,,Is it possible to love two or more people romantically?,,To love the same sex romantically?..I ponder all these questions,,sometimes I think I have the answer and then find out,,,I don't..Maybe I think too much.
I hope people will better understand me and not pick apart everything that I wrote,,it is just thoughts that pours out of me and I get in a hurry to capture them in words...
Thanks to all...Hugs...Candi
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Dear diary,,,my first date.
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Posted:Mar 6, 2010 3:55 pm
Last Updated:Feb 23, 2011 12:46 pm
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I couldn't wait to write in my diary after my date this afternoon,,I still have my date clothes on..I wanted everything to be fresh in my memory so I would never forget even the smallest detail.
I met them (the couple) in the parking lot of a restaurant that we both knew..As I got out of my car and was walking toward them,,I could see big smiles on their faces..She approached me first and reached out with a very welcoming embrace that lasted a long time,,like we knew each other forever,,with a peck on the cheek..He followed with another hug and kiss also,,,I was so overwhelmed with emotion..They were accepting me for me!..We stood there for a few minutes introducing ourselves to each other and saying how glad we all were to find real caring people on the site..All the time she held my hand and was gazing into my eyes as if she was looking into my soul..Her beautiful blue eyes just speaking out with emotion...The sun felt so good today warming us all as we stood there talking..Love was definitely in the air..
We finally went into the restaurant and was seated..He opened all the doors,,took our coats and held the chair for us..I was so impressed that chivalry was alive and doing well.He is soft spoken,,tall,,handsome,,educated,,well read and funny like no one I've met..She has blond hair,,blue eyes,,very nice body,,smart,,a laugh that is so intoxicating and very fem,,even to my standards..
We spent almost 3 hours talking,,laughing and catching up on the site and funny experiences,,,girl talk,,guy talk and anything in between....The afternoon flew by,,,I laughed so hard my sides are aching..We took a drive and went to Amish country just to spend time with each other and stopped for ice cream..It was one of the most enjoyable dates I ever had..
This couple is great!.Everything they said they were,,the pictures matched ,,they are better looking in person than any picture...There isn't a camera made that can capture her blue eyes and do them justice!,,no words to describe them fully...So understanding to me and to my needs,,never a pause in the conversation..They treated me better than most real women get treated by their own husbands..They have accepted me for me,,,what a great people they are,,what a great day it was..
They asked me why I had decided to make a date with them and not someone else first...I was very honest and said,,,"You were the only ones who asked me out with a day and time",,you were the ones that didn't ask,,,"what I was into",,but the most influential reason was a blog post they wrote roughly a month before I was on the site,,,I think it was on Feb. 14 th,,,Valentines Day...It was about how they have decided to search for a t-girl and the description that followed was so comforting to me,,,like they were reading my mind before I was even on here on the site...We have even made another date for later...I won't be able to sleep tonight and will have to call them before bed...This could very well be the ones!
Does anyone believe in karma and fate?...If so,,it is here with the 3 of us...
If this couple is the prime example of how people are on here,,,,there shouldn't be any lonely days or nights for anyone!
Since non of us can write a testimonials (being free members) for each other,,,this is it to them....Thank you ever so much,,,,totalbicouple!....Love Candi
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