the past few months I have honestly felt like an outsider. even when I find myself among friends. I get this feeling where I'm just not that close to anybody no matter how hard I try here. To some I'm just a , to others I'm just "that guy." Even when it comes to people that less than a few months ago in other rooms I felt amazingly close to. I still want to be closer to a lot of the people here, but until then I come in with high hopes, and leave more dejected than before.
I don't know maybe I'm trying too hard... and you know what the sad thing is? more than likely the people that I want to see this post aren't going to.