New Year Outlook....
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Posted:Jan 1, 2014 8:12 am
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I remember a friend of mine asked me why am I still in here... There're many other places where I can look for sex (actually I already knew that too long ago...  ).... I guess it's just blogging... Blogging where there really isn't much of anyone reading....?? That thought kind of appeals to me....
I like my room... But somehow I wish my computer desk could be closer to the door so that I can be more easily watching the TV and be on my PC at the same time... Maybe I won't be having this 'issue' if I had opted for a laptop instead of an 'all in one' PC....?? But I'm still glad I opted for this PC... 
My nails suck... I should be cutting them but somehow I'm still not... Think there'll be too many things to be done this Saturday... Finally... This Saturday where I'll not need to work and have no plan for now...
I thought of doing a real throughout clean up and clearing of the house before New Year but that didn't happen too... This will happen before the next potential room mate comes to view the place...
I wonder what good movie might be released this week....?
Things in life generally seems to be going good... Sometimes I wonder I should be spending more time into the 'things I wish to do'...? Venturing into different things like I used to... But either way, I think it's good... Though I've been too busy and there're truly too many things I wish to do but just ain't doing....
I miss running, singing, clubbing... Somehow dancing... I'm glad somehow I'm still gaming much... I miss sex..? Good sex, but somehow seems to be having quite a good control over myself... Surprisingly...?
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New Year ResolutionS....
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Posted:Jan 1, 2014 7:55 am
Last Updated:Apr 28, 2024 10:36 pm
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It's New Year.. I cannot imagine how many people would be posting similar posts like this....
I remember I had made my resolutions last year... I can remember I made my resolutions the year before.... But I cannot quite remember what they are.... I remember making them my 'targets' and objectives instead of just 'what I wish to have'... I remember them to be mostly if not all work-related stuffs.... I think I cannot remember or be bothered with them because no matter how hard I worked, I was never really truly appreciated at work... I can remember one of my resolutions to be doing less at work and enjoying more in life... I don't remember myself doing that when I got back to work... I still worked like shit and continued to break through myself.. I think it's just in my blood now... I think too many people know that...
This year I did not make any work resolution. Instead I made 2 resolutions in my personal life.. 2 things I 'wish' to learn... I'm not pushing it yet because I can't remember when was the last time I made a 'personal' resolution...
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I've got a plan....?
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Posted:Dec 25, 2013 7:23 am
Last Updated:Apr 28, 2024 10:36 pm
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And it's no ordinary plan... It's the plan of the plans... And soon, I'll get even closer to 'no plan'.....
I like what I saw today. I finally see this... Somehow I never thought I would....? She didn't close her door today. My house mate. Her door was ajar and I saw her change. She is a pretty girl. Now I know she has a nice figure too? She was in her panties, back against me... She was looking at herself in the mirror. She has a nice firm round ass... Then there was more which I didn't expect. She took off her yellow bra and went on to try a black one.... I saw her firm perking breast and nipples.. They were dark but somehow beautiful like her... I wasn't sure if she noticed me behind her, but she just went on to put on her dress after... I just walked away.... Somehow I wonder... To let her know that I know and have seen her changed... Would that be a bad idea? I think perhaps it's just better to let everything sink behind....?
I thought I wanted to watch that particular porno, but I was wrong... Instead I was up the whole night watching documentaries on YouTube....
I thought I wanted to go online and 'shoot' people, I thought I can wait until today but thought I'm still thinking about it... The urge really isn't there....?
I thought I wanted sex, but I ended up going for a very nice decent massage instead... Think I was really too tired...? I ended up really enjoying it and sleeping a bit through...
I thought life should be getting better, but instead I'm working like shit and getting further and further away from my goal....
I thought I should be getting more financially stable, but instead my account was hacked(?)
I thought X'Mas has always been a particularly meaningful festive for me, but instead it's extraordinarily quiet this year....
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I hate, my head.
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Posted:Dec 24, 2013 7:35 am
Last Updated:Apr 28, 2024 10:36 pm
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X'Mas eve and I'm at home alone... A bit unusual...? Guess I've been beaten...? By work... Life....? Or maybe it's just a change...?
HACKED?? SERIOUS issue... I hope I'm wrong.. I hope it's just a minor bug of the bank at this moment of time... Suddenly I've no access to my bank account and $$$... If this thing persist, it might escalate into a bigger problem... I've got bills to pay, plans to meet and even money I'll need to feed myself and go on with my daily activities.... DAMN IT!
Somehow I thought of just covering myself with a pillow, wake up, and tomorrow all these would just be a bad dream gone away....??!
Eagle. Sharp eye sight my foot... Bird eye's view is more like it...? Somehow everything seems to have moved up another level again... This time round it's not only in that sense the way I think... But my 'level' of thinking....
But I've not let it sink into me yet... What is happening to me...?
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Give it to me babe...
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Posted:Dec 23, 2013 6:52 am
Last Updated:Apr 28, 2024 10:36 pm
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I thought I needed sex and should be out looking for it... But the truth is really much further than I've thought....
Very tired. For the past few nights I can't remember how many '2 hours' I'd slept... Left all alone to fight and struggle at work, totally no X'Mas mood...
Running has exhausted me. The only thing I've guessed correctly so far is that I would feel so much damn better after my run...
At this point of time I really just wish I could lay down on my bed even though my hair is still wet.....
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Sick. Not?
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Posted:Dec 19, 2013 7:27 am
Last Updated:Apr 28, 2024 10:36 pm
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Feeling sick... Well... Not exactly... More like in the mind than physically... Tired. Things I want to do... Things I need to do... Things others need me to do... Things others want me to do.... I think the next thing I want the most at this moment other than that Cherryade on my desk would be my sleep...
I've been sleeping 2 hours each night for the passed 2 nights...
Can't think. Can't seems to focus. Made many mistakes these days...
Things seem to be working...? I seems to be having so much more control over myself now... Or so it seems...?
Secrets of life... Reminded and forgotten... Maybe some things in life are really better left forgotten...?
Were much I wanted to blog about but now my mind doesn't seems to be quite working... Maybe it's really better this way...?
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Change - a series of unfortunate events....
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Posted:Dec 16, 2013 5:37 pm
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Though I often roam high, sometimes they just happens... My mind continues to think in alignment...
The unfortunate things that happened to people around me, myself, lessons continue to be learned... Change or live to suffer harsh lessons from life... Still think I'm smart and intelligent? But perhaps really I'm not...? Simple and tiny minds with that most basic instinctive logic can outwit my thoughts.... So what was I really thinking about...?
Lucky. Sometimes it happens to people, sometimes it does not... Sometimes it happen to people over and over again, but it is most unlikely to happen to people forever... When would people learn? Sometimes we look at others without thinking through and reflecting on ourselves... When would we learn...? Really...?
The movie that never ended... Most likely gonna catch it again with a whole new meaning....
Headache. It's coming back again... But a small 'cost' in extra for the 'luck'.....
Feel like running this evening, but my mind... My body... And perhaps not even my time seems to favour it.....?
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I'm good.
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Posted:Dec 15, 2013 7:01 am
Last Updated:Dec 16, 2013 5:38 pm
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Fallen sick.. Reminds me how much I hate this feeling... But despite that, I'm still good. 
Too many people.. With the season and bonus coming in, on shopping spree... I just ain't in that mood. I have other plans for my money... Though I won't say they're very wise choices for now...?
Too tired. Definitely no shooting game tonight. No mood. Been sleeping the whole day but doesn't really seems to help... Even if I wish to shoot, my eyes and energy level would probably fail me miserably...? I hereby declare tomorrow a well deserved rest day. Been working too hard... What if my getting MCs spoil my chance for recognition of my contributions again...?? Don't be stupid... There NEVER was a chance for recognition... Just 'made beliefs'... A dangling carrot.... Take what I deserve. My body feel like shit. Need hell lots more rest....
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Mr SmartAss...
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Posted:Dec 12, 2013 6:00 am
Last Updated:Dec 16, 2013 5:39 pm
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Think I've not been myself lately... Things that I want to do, things that need to be done... Things that are being done... All seems to lump into a single confusion....
I can't remember how many nights I've not been shooting online.. From the time when I didn't wanted to... Till the time I wanted to but was too busy... To the time when I wanted to but was too tired... I don't even feel like talking or blogging about it tonight. Sort of miss my other 'battle grounds'...
I was really tired yesterday. Thought I was so smart as to 'force' my way through and got most things done... Ya right.... My ass... Wasted the whole time last night blogging only to find that I had not hit the 'submit' button and got logged off (with my blog entry removed from memory), only to wake in confusion... Went through and 'cleared' my e-mails only to realise that I had not attended to the important ones... Washed my laundry with tissue paper inside the pocket and got them all stuck to the clothes...
Good sex... Sometimes after a while you just forget how good sex is really like and starts to make believe that what you're having is 'good' or maybe 'good enough'...? You deceive yourself and starts to forget what you've been missing... Till you bumps into something really 'good' again... 
Good food, movie, video games.... Been missing that particular food for a long time.... May it be good food or movie tomorrow, all should end well...?
Think I've been really too tired, have not been myself... Making mistakes here and there.... Prioritizing and planning... One of the things I do best.... Yet what have I been thinking about...? Missing on this simple important piece in my personal life...
Looking forward... Would be clearing my debt soon... Would I finally be getting what I had always wanted....?
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Quick One
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Posted:Dec 11, 2013 3:31 pm
Last Updated:Dec 15, 2013 7:04 am
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I did 2 pages blog entry last night only to wake up this morning, finding myself dozed off in front of the computer before hitting the submit button, too blur to take measures to safeguard my entry hence losing it...
I think if there is one thing I really hate about my job, it'll not be doing OT, the conflicts or even that much about my boss... It's when I'm asked to do meaningless and unproductive things which is like a total waste of my time...
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The Season....
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Posted:Dec 10, 2013 7:54 am
Last Updated:Apr 28, 2024 10:36 pm
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The power of delusion... Illusion... Magic... The way your mind play tricks on you... The way you can play tricks on your mind....
No mood. Though on my mind, I'm still on things... Wanting to move forward at work... But things are getting more and more obvious at workplace... People getting more and more detached from their jobs as the season draws closer... Ever worse than before... Somehow it's hard to fight that mentality and psychological block... Knowing at the end of the day, my boss would just be giving me another lame excuse to not recognise all my work.. And all those who are just having fun and enjoying their lives at work would be getting the same appraisal grade as me though I'd worked my ass out and been falling sick over and over again for work... So much so that I think I'm getting a certain 'stage'.... Stronger than ever... Ready to go any time. Not preparing to turn back at all...
Sometimes I look at profiles and wonder how many of them are real... How many of them are really just here to hook up for money... How many I would really be interested in... How many would really be interested in me....? Maybe... It doesn't really bother that much for now...?
No sex for me... Having a bad sore throat... But if you ask me what I really miss now, it would be licking and tasting a nice pussy much more than actual sex.... Missing clubbing. Miss flirting in a club. Though this is something I hardly do at all, I must admit the last few times it happened, they were really great... Especially when they resulted in good (they almost always do... ) sex.....
Interestingly and surprisingly enough, gaming did not manage to arouse my interest at all during a short period back... But now it has always been coming back to my head... Just that I always end up either very late for it or TOO LATE for it... -_-'~
HATE E-MAILS. Thought it is suppose to bring convenience..? Nowadays it seems more like a chore to clear them, even for personal ones...
CHANCES came and BLEW... Chances... Are weird things....
Just remembered I have not hang my washed laundry....
What colour is happiness....?
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Come Now....
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Posted:Dec 4, 2013 7:35 am
Last Updated:Apr 28, 2024 10:36 pm
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I like almost all sorts of music... Yet strangely enough among them, I like silence a lot....
Truly looking forward to my vacation next month and bonus this month...
I finally watched "Faces of Death" yesterday... But I only managed to watch part 1... I would say it could be a little disturbing if you think too much into it... Then again, life goes on yeah...? There're really so many things which are 'disturbing' in this world, but often what we can do about them are pretty 'limited'... Or so we think....? Yet to devote time to watch the other sequels, but I'm looking forward... Good thing I didn't get to watch it as a like my brother did... Come to think of it, I probably was too stupid to understand much of anything anyway even if I got to watch it...? I remember watching other 'disturbing videos' when I was young as well... But I seriously didn't quite get much of what they were trying to say... So less to speak they might even have any 'disturbing' effect on me also...?
3 days to 'alpha' and 5 days to 'bravo'..... Hope everything goes on well... No pressure anyway...?
I was so stupid.. I even thought of helping my superior so that she can clear her work... She really has been giving me shit recently and giving me bullshits these recent weeks.. All in all, she has changed... She used to be very nice and I would have gone all out to support her.... Not anymore... I know she won't appreciate what I do. Not like she would even bother to accept my help anyway.....? I want to be more relaxed during this season... I wish to be more selfish like so too many others....
I found out something recently. The popular desert stall that I often visit actually is doing shit in the way they handle their food... Too bad I'm an 'insider' and I know how such food should be handled... People really don't care much the heck about what they sell you to eat these days... All they really care about is the $$$..... Reminds me of the song 'Price Tag'..... Even people who smile at you, 'talk cock' and laugh with you..... ~Sigh~
I was thinking today... I was very surprised by how much I've changed. I used to be a nerdy guy... Slow and kinda 'stupid' guy.... My friends who have not met me for a very long time and happens to meet me again often give 'that look'....
Today I'm superb. I've done all the things I need to do, even those I didn't think I would... And I'm not even having a sweat. Everything is going strictly to what I want. Even have time to have a GREAT CUM! Even though DIY very often just ain't what I like.... Had a HOT SHOWER which somehow just felt SO DIFFERENT! Blogging, surfing net and be 'shooting' online in a while... Somehow I think I'm managing my life and all sorts of needs better now....?
I'm thinking about my appraisal next year... I think they'll just find all sorts of excuses to not give me any recognition for all that I've done again... Sometimes really wish to just let go and relax.... Not be bothered with anything at work anymore.. Be selfish like the many others.... But... Guess what I am is just in my blood... I suppose the more viable option is to change job and hopefully look for a better boss?
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