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Posted:May 1, 2011 1:16 pm
Last Updated:Jan 25, 2015 3:09 pm
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I don't think anyone gets married and plans to have an afair. Sure, some people get married with the full intention of having an open marriage. There are people that get pressured into marriage for some reason or another and may plan to have some side action down the road. But as you say Ido, the first thought normally isn't "I bet I can nail someone different next week".
As for myself I got married thinking that things were going to work out really well for me. We had a lot in common. We get along real well. We had had sex a few times but she decided that she really wanted to wait until marriage for anything else, and I respected that. After we got married I found that sex was somethign I would have to practically beg for and accept that I would only get it once every couple of months.
Add in the fact that I am attrated to men as well as women, which I tried talkingto my wife about before we got married and she did not want to know anything about that. Yes, I know this should have been a big red flag, but I was young and stupid back then (as opposed to older and hopefully less stupid now). Her exact words at the time were "If you have an afair, I never want to know about it".
So for the first year or so of marriage I tried to make things work. as it stands my wife loves to walk around naked. SHe lets me take pictures of her whenever I want practically. Sex itself seems to be the limit, which she refused to talk about why that is the limit without changing the subject.
So people as me what I am looking for in here. It is a fair question. I don't want to cheat. Afterall, really who does? But a what point do I accept that my needs should be met as well as hers? It may sound selfish that way, but there is the truth of it. My needs are not being met.
After having been a member of this site for a few years, I have met with some people. I may talk about them in here and share experiences. I am trying out this idea of blogging for the first time. I don't know where I am going with this or what I hope to accomplish at this point. I'm not sure what need I am trying to meet with it. Maybe I just need a place to vent where people might understand me.
And yes, I do love my wife, no I am not leaving her despite the sex issue. Why you may justly ask. I can't answer that except for to say that I do love her and when things work well as a whole relationship it is great. Beyond that what else is there to say?
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