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I hope am in the right group ....

Hi am not really sure how to begin to tell my situation, but hears it goes I was part of polyamory relationship where I was the second male I met them on this site. the other male was her husband. we are not gay and never did anything sexual. That does not mean I dont love him anyless than his wife I just do not Lust for him sexually but I Do Lust for his friendship and to be by his side. I enjoyed having threesomes with him what a blast and if his wife died today I would still want to be with him.

when we first meet I never knew how great this would become. I did not think we would last more than month but it did 5 years. it was so good I moved in with them and their . soon after it got little bad not sure what happened but it was not the same we never yelled at each other or had fights it just was not the same. because of the person I am I kept to myself and I hurt them both keeping to myself. I never wanted to cause any marriage problems am not home wrecker. I was asked to move out and I did it broke my heart.

Soon after I made another profile on here it was completey fake all I was doing was masterbating on web cam.. my current profile is 100% real. during that time they made another profile as well which I found on accident it was under the people that viewed me I saw her picture if it was not for that I would have never known it was them. right after that I gained the courage to ask for second chance I was turned down. but I never stopped. few weeks went by the next thing you know we are back together but it only lasted 3 days.

We rushed back way too fast and she needed time. I was told we would do the friends only thing for long time and see how it goes. During this time we never did anything to build are bond and our Lust for one another.

Here am today and the relationship is not going happen. am completly heart broken, lost and very scared. I love them so much I feel so connected with them. I can never say I loved any one any more than them. I Probably will never love anyone ever again nor do I want to.

So my questions are....

Has anyone on here ever been in polyamory relationship that ended where you were still in love with them both?

were you still friends after breaking up?

Please give some help or advise on how to save this relationship? if you can? I do not know who else to ask am alone on this.

She does not have feelings for me sexually any more but loves me to pieces.

FYI: they still want to be friends but things change you know....find new friends.............. I feel them drifting away slowly I do not want to lose them. I want to work to build our bond and our Lust for one another again. To live beautiful life with them. They are my passion their well being is of the upmost importance. I can not stop loving them.

If you read this or gave me advise thank you so much