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I am beginning to wonder if the art of anal sex is lost. Recently, I had an interesting encounter, where my partner was rather rough anally, even after I advised him that it had been almost 2 years since I had anal sex. I am happy my neighbors weren't home (or they pretended not to be), because I was screaming like a little girl  I miss the days when I was first introduced to anal, the care and attention I received, the reassurance and relaxation techniques given to allow me to enjoy it fully. That guy was 9" on a bad day, and I learned to take every inch. I always laugh when I think of New Years Eve 2000/2001 - He was fucking my ass so good, I was begging for more and he told me that there wasn't any more to give me... The time before the last time ended miserably because my ex failed to understand that my ass and pussy are 2 entirely different holes  amp; you can't treat them the same way. What are your thoughts on anal sex, and to the guys, what DO you do to get your partner to relax? |
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Posted:Apr 23, 2011 9:57 pm
Last Updated:May 14, 2011 1:26 pm
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I am my own worst enemy.
This has not been the week that I wanted it to be. I did something that I promised myself I wouldn't do (this seems to be a re-occurring theme in my life). But trying to revamp and be accountable for all of my shortcomings, leads me to times of reflection.
I am more disappointed in myself and my lack of self restraint. Mr PT paid me a visit...need I say anything else? And I did disclose this info to my Sir - who reminded me that if we were in a true BDSM relationship, I would be beyond bruised for giving his pussy away. Luckily for me, he is kind, but I had to give a night of service to him...and one of his belts hanging on the bathroom door was good incentive for my compliance.
And to make matters even more strange, I have decided to move out of the state in a few months, provided that I passed my last round of testing. I have an opportunity to actually work in my field, and I can't pass that up. I know I will be gone for a year. I am scared of the unknown too, I have never lived outside the state of Florida. He is supportive of my decision to move. And that means the most to me. Having him as my friend (and being his lover) is amazing.
But until then, I am going to enjoy my sessions with him. And we still plan on the camshow/new profile pic session. I still need to find an appropriate mask, however a suggestion he made in the early hours this morning seems perfect for the occasion.
Will keep you all in the loop,
Luoxana
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Posted:Apr 16, 2011 7:04 pm
Last Updated:Apr 19, 2011 4:18 pm
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My New Sir is a bit of an exhibitionist...He has suggested that we do a web cam show. Hopefully the new profile pic will come from that. He told me that I will be wearing a mask so that I can remain anonymous. Its funny, he is a visual exhibitionist, I am a literary exhibitionist. Speaking of my writing, I was reminded that I had not posted here lately.
We "played" last night, he has been gone for a week, had a death in his family. I was worried, I know all about family death...sort of a specialty I would rather not have. Anyway, I got to his place a few minutes early, he sent me a text saying, "Door is unlocked. Get upstairs. Undress. Sit that pussy on my face. And suck that dick like you missed it!!!" I was happy to oblige him.
We were in our "dance" for 2.5 hours, probably would have lasted longer, but I hyperventilated while riding him  I have been a bit sick lately, had someone at work wear some awful perfume last week, and I haven't been right ever since. He got me some water, let me catch my breath, and we continued on. I am getting used to deep throating him, but he is long enough to cut off my air supply - there are days where I wish I was a fish and had gills. He enjoys my mouth, and I love making him cum, especially in my mouth. I am a greedy little cumslut, and I don't want waste a drop. I got him again this morning, afterwards, we were talking and I noticed that he had a solid bead of cum at the tip. I had to make sure it didn't get lost!!
Even when I am not with him, I get tingles, I blush, I get wet, and my nipples get hard. Chills up my spine, and I smile uncontrollably. He is addictive. His kisses make my brain blank. A few weeks back, he took me to dinner after work. We were in the parking lot, and he planted a kiss on me that made my knees weak. He started talking to me, and I still to this day don't know what it was that he said. When we are in bed, and he kisses me, I am happy we are laying down. When we are in the throws of passion, I am lifted, sometimes I feel like I am floating, the feelings remind me of some stuff I did in college.....
Anyway, I hope that I please him the way he pleases me. I look forward to my next session 
Luox
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Posted:Apr 3, 2011 3:53 pm
Last Updated:Apr 29, 2024 6:13 pm
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So the poll is close (not closed-but will be closing soon), the top 2 being cum on me vs dildos inside of me. We will see which one I choose, and I do thank everyone for voting.
I am at a crossroads of sorts, I am requesting to be released from my present Dom. It just isn't working for me, and I don't feel a connection with him. I have been sitting on this for over a month, trying to make myself "feel" something that I really don't. It isn't there...it never was.
I thought that going back to regular dating would solve my dilemma. Met another Dom...LOL We've been on 2 dates this week, the last one is when the cat came out of the bag so to speak. I will have to keep you all advised of whatever this turns out to be. But I will say this, he makes me blush spontaneously.
Kisses, Luox
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Posted:Feb 23, 2011 7:33 pm
Last Updated:Jan 23, 2022 9:36 pm
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Today was an interesting day...
I got a job - Thank God!!
I got to visit my new Dom for our first mini bondage session. I had to lay face down on his bed where he had my feet tied down and my hands behind my back. He had a one of those Magic Wands on my clit while he was alternating from the flogger to a small paddle and then his hands. I came so hard I left a small puddle. I know I will get in a bit of trouble because I came and didn't ask permission to cum. But my brain was fried and overstimulated with simultaneous pleasure and pain. We were talking afterwards about how "spankings" were punishment when I was a , and now it is reward for me. Its funny how things change.
I got home and started chatting on IM here and of all people to hit me up, Mr Deltona popped up, new profile - as a couple... Apparently he got married. Therefore he is now officially off limits. Damn shame...I was looking forward to one day revisiting him (hopefully when his friend comes back - still need to get that damn DP).
Speaking of off limits, I had an interesting chat with Mr PT...actually, he just hit me up on my private IM. Anyway, it pisses me off that I still crave him. He is out of the state on business, and all I can think about our trip to Sarasota last Sept. I am happy (again) that I had to move to Orlando. It gives us much needed space.
Anyway, those are my ramblings.
Kisses, Luox
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Finished moving...
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Posted:Feb 3, 2011 8:18 am
Last Updated:Apr 29, 2024 6:13 pm
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Well, the move to Orlando is complete. I think what cracks me up the most are the people now in Volusia county who are hitting me up looking for play time. Its like they are not looking for a local chick, but someone far enough away...if you catch my drift. The Orlando guys have been hitting me up like I'm fresh meat, I have to tell them that I have been around this block before.
I am however, looking forward to visiting a few places I didn't have the opportunity to when I lived an hour away, and meeting some interesting folk I have been chatting with for a while. Hopefully this will be beneficial for all parties involved 
Luox
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Toads and hind sight being 20-20
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Posted:Jan 21, 2011 10:43 pm
Last Updated:Apr 27, 2011 8:54 pm
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I love it when my 6th sense kicks in...but sometimes it is a little too late for me to not get hurt. Mr PT came by for a visit yesterday morning. As we talked after the mind-blowing sex, I was sitting on his left side, holding his hand when I looked down and saw that lovely tan mark on his ring finger...
Again I bitched up and didn't say a thing. I just sat there and ignored it - or better yet, held it together so I wouldn't either start crying or slapping the shit out of him. I remember ranting a year or so ago that some rude guy told me that every man on this site was married and I needed to get a clue (or something like that). I do know that there are a few single men on here, but damn.
The thing that pisses me off about this situation, is that he was around with the whole GI thing back in March. But I figure that him not being truthful (Mr PT that is), was his way of keeping me around. Now that school is over, I have been able to look at things very objectively, and things were starting to not add up.
I guess it started back in November. I was getting some ice to put in a glass and he came up behind me and I turned to kiss him. I told him that he tasted like me - he made a beeline to the bathroom to wash his face. He always had to leave so he could be home by a certain time (I know...how I missed that red flag is beyond me). And now that he is sharing about his family, I see how he chooses his words carefully to not clue me in on the fact that there is a wife.
And to think, the last time we were together he told me he hadn't had sex with ANYONE else except me since whenever...and to be honest, after that last time, I hadn't had sex with anyone else. And for me, that is saying a whole hell of alot - no sex in a month. He even called me late Thursday to tell me how crazy he was about me (I feel stupid for even posting this shit) and he was looking forward to us scheduling that trip to Savannah if my job allows (if I ever get a damn real job - anyone hiring in Central FL?).
However, subconsciously I knew. I started "looking" again, and even went on a date with a real cutie 2 weekends ago, but now I am scared of my own judgment of men these days. He seems nice, but he has and I don't want to get in the way of his parenting...I have not been blessed to have , and I will never get in the way of a parent and their , no matter what.
I also had a chat with the 8 month guy tonight and he is back in the Middle East. We discussed all of this, and as much as I enjoyed his company back in December, when he returns stateside, it is to get married to his high school sweetheart. So, I am NOT getting involved with him again either. I guess I am back to square one.
Its funny, we all have our dry periods, I guess this is mine. I will keep you all posted on how it goes when I confront Mr PT - because it IS coming, and it won't be pretty.
Luox (aka Madame Idiot for the next 48 hours)
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I'm 24 today
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Posted:Jan 2, 2011 7:28 pm
Last Updated:Jan 7, 2011 7:23 am
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I realized that I lost my virginity 24 years ago today. Somebody break out the champagne!!
I always giggle when I get e-mails from guys younger than me, and especially those where I could be their mom. I have even taken that plunge once, and then a few plunges with a guy who was 13 years younger than me as well. Had some fun with them, but I will take my more experienced men any day
Speaking of experience, I have gotten myself a somewhat local Mentor to guide me through what I need to learn about being a submissive. Just because I want something doesn't mean I have the tools necessary to accept it into my life. I have made alot of mistakes recently regarding this subject, and I need to take a step back and learn the art and philosophy of what I need.
Happy 2011 folks!!!
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what's a girl to do?
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Posted:Dec 23, 2010 8:11 pm
Last Updated:Jan 9, 2014 10:46 pm
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2 issues....
Around this time last year, I told you all about a guy that I went to high school with who lives local whom I hooked up with. (Please note the past tense on that). Anyway, this guy's family and mine are long time friends. In fact, when my mom passed, this guy's mom was really close to me, making sure that I didn't get bombarded with alot of people during her wake. I do remember one weird conversation she had with me regarding her , and I got the impression that she wanted us to get a little more serious. I laughed it off, but I have noticed that when he and I talk, he is calling me sweetie, darling, baby, etc. Normally that wouldn't bother me, but when it goes from darling to MY darling, the red flags start to get thrown on the field.
Side bar, the reason I stopped seeing him was that the sex was bad. He is skilled orally, and hung, but he didn't make much noise in bed, and every time I went over there, the sex got shorter and shorter - oh, and I never had an orgasm. In fact, the last time I slept with him, the whole fucking act lasted 3 minutes. It started with him saying "here we go" and ended when he got up to toss the condom and clean up. Then to add insult to injury, when he got back into bed, he picked up his laptop and started chatting with someone on facebook.
I really felt used, so I made up an excuse that I was seeing someone so he would stop calling me. But stupid me told him last week that that me and the mystery man broke up (stupid me). So now, whenever I get on fb, this guy is begging for me to come over, so he can "hold me." At 1am, there is only so much holding of a person that you are going to do.
2 nights ago, I had an aggrevating conversation with a guy regarding marriage and monogamy, and as soon as that conversation ended, this other guy pops online asking me to come over, at 1:40am - booty call. But he got mad at me when I told him it wasn't worth my time to come over there for us to fuck and him to either roll over and go to sleep or get on the computer. He was like "I have never fucked you, and you have only spent one night." I had to remind him that I have spent 4 nights there, and one time, he left me there because he had an early morning flight to Houston. The next day, I felt bad about snapping at him and apologized. Today, he is begging for me to come over again. I told him that today wasn't good (for more reasons than the obvious), and that we needed to talk about "this" but it had to wait until next week.
The conumdrum is that IF I was the gold-digging type, I would so play him because he is loaded - the Daytona house is his 2nd house, the main one is in Houston (thus, why he was going there). I come from a small town, and he and I would be a classic "power couple." But the sex is horrible and I just can't see myself getting involved with someone like him.
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The other reason I was not going over there today was that Mr Princess Treatment paid me our monthly visit. 2 hours of being dicked down by my perfect lover. I am sore, and still walking funny. Oh, and the 8 month guy caught a different flight and didn't have his Orlando layover, so who knows when we will ever cross paths again. Anyway, on one of our breathers (I know he made me cum at least 6-7 times today), he told me that he wasn't sharing his dick with anyone else... In that moment, I froze for a split second; for what seemed like an eternity. I couldn't say the same thing to him, but at that moment, I wanted to BE able to say that back to him. My mind raced going thru the short list of who all I have slept with, and other than the 8 month guy, Mr P.T. is the only other person I have slept with since late October. I couldn't respond or reply, so I just started sucking him. I totally bitched up!!
I am actually confused with myself. Lately, I have said to a few friends that I think I am ready to slow all of this down. But with this particular man, he and I are slightly in 2 different places in our lives. I do eventually want to settle down and have (one day), whereas, he has grown and grandkids. I KNOW am making too much of this. But we are planning a 5 day vacation next month (provided that I am not gainfully employed). No work, just me and him and a hotel room in a far away town for some fun, food and lots of frolicking.
I can't wait. Even if nothing ever changes with Mr P.T., I have enjoyed every minute of this.
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Today, everything changes
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Posted:Dec 17, 2010 5:44 am
Last Updated:Apr 28, 2011 4:35 pm
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It will be bittersweet....
I have the amazing luck of being able to graduate as a Doctor of XXXXX (no, still won't post my new profession) today, on my birthday. Not having my mother here to see me physically reach this accomplishment tears my heart. I have a picture of us when I got my Bachelor's degree, and I will carry it with me as I walk across the stage in a few hours.
I know she is still with me, I feel her presence every day.
My friends have been calling and texting me since 7am. I treasure all of them. This is an awesome spot to be in, and I am going to try to not cry during the whole ceremony.
Hugs and kisses to all!
Dr. Luoxana
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8 months of waiting....
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Posted:Dec 13, 2010 1:35 am
Last Updated:Jan 18, 2013 9:29 pm
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So, I met this guy tonight for the first time after we started chatting in May. We had dinner, enjoyed a margarita (or 3), ended up at a sports bar... After 7 hours of silliness, football (Yay Jax & Philly) and good drinks, it was time for me to go - had a 2 hour drive ahead of me, he lookes at me and says "Lets get out of here and go fuck."
...Mr Princess Treatment has some competition!
All I can say is WOW. I know that the anticipation had something to do with it, but damn, I came in the first 10 minutes. Then again, 5 minutes later. Then again, when he came...then I had aftershocks for 20 minutes afterwards. I love a man who kisses, and there was such a hunger between us the first time our tongues met. It was a well choreographed dance between the 2 of us, sometimes fucking, sometimes having sex, but mostly, we made love - something I haven't done in months. Honestly, at this exact moment, I miss that connection with someone.
I hope that his job brings him back to the area soon - well, he has to fly into MCO on Dec 23rd...I gotta figure out how to ditch my Orlando family for that afternoon.....
Happy Holidays
Luox
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Spoilage
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Posted:Dec 9, 2010 8:55 am
Last Updated:Apr 29, 2024 6:13 pm
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There are times I wonder if Mr Princess Treatment has a remote control with my name on it...
He stopped by yesterday. I told him that the orgasms he gives me are like a roller coaster...as soon as I think I'm coming down from one, he does something to make me QUICKLY have another one. Its funny that since we went on our beach trip, he has wanted anal - he is thick, and I dont think that I'm ready. Can you believe that I am making this statement? I have a new anal plug that I've only used once. I think I need to remember to pull it out and stretch myself prior to his arrival.
Anyway, he gave me a return of the DP fingering technique. But I have no idea how many fingers he had where, but I know if my next door neighbor was home, she would have called the police, I was screaming in sheer pleasure. I do know that one of the times he was fingering me, he got 4 fingers in my pussy for a little bit of time before I made him stop. So he just readjusted me on the couch (I was so afraid that my roommates were going to walk in on us), stuck 2 fingers back in, massaged my G-spot and licked my clit until I came again.
We did eventually get in my bed, but it was for me to somewhat get him back. I was sucking him (again) and I finished him with a good hand job - I think that this was the first time I did that to him. I love watching him when he cums, his eyes roll up in the back of his head, then open, then slam shut.
We spent the rest of the afternoon talking about the craziness going on with his adult and the holidays; then about my goals for after graduation. I appreciate him - a true friend with benefits. He is even coming to watch me graduate next week. I just hope that whenever I do decide to settle down, I find someone like him (one who wants some ), but until I do, I am going to enjoy my Princess Treatments every time he gives them to me!
Kisses,
Luox
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What I'm thankful for...
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Posted:Nov 24, 2010 8:49 pm
Last Updated:Feb 13, 2011 10:59 pm
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I had a visit last night from my Canadian Dom
Unfortunately, my body was being ignorant, and since neither of us redwing, all he got was some of my tongue and lip action. Not that I am complaining, I love sucking him off. I love how he will grab my hair and pull my mouth off of him so he can pinch and or bite my nipples...then pushing me back on his dick and holding my head down as he fucks my mouth. I love how I get spanked, and how he knows how much I love being spanked...
Fuck, I am still horny thinking about it 
Or could it be that Mr Princess Treatment stopped by this afternoon and got some of the same? His birthday was last week, and I hadn't properly given him his birthday licks. I own a massage table, so he got a light rub down and a happy ending!! Hell, I love sucking HIM off too. He's rather thick, so when I deep throat him, I really do gag. He told me that he thinks I had more fun than he did today. I think he's right.
Oh, and I had to reschedule my interview with the new potential Dom...one of these days we are actually going to meet.
I hope that all of you have a wonderful Thanksgiving!
Kisses, Luox
I'm being a slut again - or a cum bucket as my ex called me once....
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